So I'm at school right now (posting on a Mac! whee!) and I have over an hour to kill till my last class. I'm just feeling very blah about the whole school experience right now. I'm thinking that I'm going to seriously cut back on the number of classes I take next year, or maybe just not take any at all, and focus on working. I'm just really confused. I'm also considering moving out of Robyn and Dave's house, and into an apartment of my own. There are some like, right across from the university that would totally work. I'm really feeling like I need to go and be really independant. Not just away from my parents, I feel like I want to go and be my own person, and live on my own. I want to be able to play music out loud, not just on my headphones because there are two other people in the room trying to concentrate on their own things. I want to have my own place, where I can have friends over and not worry about whether it's okay with Rob&Dave. I dunno.
Even if it happens, it won't until after this school year. Like, mid-to-late April at the earliest. What I think I've decided is that I'm going to start working pretty soon, or I might wait until after Christmas, we'll see.
But I'll work, and try to save as much money as I can, and then I'd be in a slightly better situation if I did decide to leave, because I would have my little bit of money in the bank if I needed it. Cause I kind of feel like I went from being Rick and Kathy's daughter to Robyn and Dave's niece without stopping to be Brynne anywhere in between. And I kind of feel like that needs to happen. And I know that living on my own isn't the glam thing that it's portrayed as in movies. There will be bills, and things that go bump in the night, but I can handle that. I need to give myself the chance to handle that.
3 comments:
go out and be brynne! and i will be janna and totally support you in anything you choose to do.
and you can totally come and live on my couch/futon if you so desire.
Amen, Brynne! Living on your own is scary and expensive, but so entirely liberating. It is definetly an adventure you have to experience.
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